Persistent Upper Mid-Back Pain in the Winter-Nights

 Dear Doctors,

I hope this message finds you well. I am writing to seek your advice concerning a health issue that has been affecting me during the winter season.

Since November, I have been experiencing persistent upper mid-back pain. The discomfort typically begins around 5 AM while I am asleep and continues until I sit upright or take a brief walk. Interestingly, after engaging in some light activity, such as standing for 15-20 minutes, the pain tends to subside.

When attempting to pinpoint the source of the pain by applying pressure with my hand to the affected area, I am unable to localize it specifically. However, the sensation suggests that it originates somewhere internally, just behind my middle chest.

I am reaching out to you for guidance on understanding the potential causes of this discomfort and to seek recommendations for further evaluation or possible treatment. Your expertise in this matter would be highly appreciated.

Thank you for your time, and I look forward to your guidance.

Sincerely,

Sanjay.

My weekly Shy Bladder journal #3

Hi again,

They say promises are made to be broken. I've heard this phrase before, and though I didn't give it much credence, I find myself thinking differently now that I've broken the promise I made to you—to write a weekly journal post. Perhaps there's some truth to it after all.

As for why I haven't been writing, I don't want to offer excuses, but truthfully, the primary reason is that there hasn't been any significant change in my struggle with Paruresis, also known as Shy Bladder. Over the past three weeks, I'd say I've experienced a 50-50 success-to-failure ratio. There have been moments of joy and confidence, and there have been moments when I've frozen up, unable to relieve myself.

Additionally, I wasn't able to finish the book I started reading, "The Secret Social Phobia" by Dr. Steven Soifer. While I do have some explanations, I won't burden you with them by delving into the details here.

I've also realized it might be a good idea to keep these posts shorter. This way, I won't feel overwhelmed and hesitant to return here to write every week.

My Weekly Shy Bladder Journal - #2

 Hi,

Earlier, in my last post, I was planning to make this a daily journal, but due to my work schedule, I think this wouldn't be possible. Now, I would post weekly, possibly on every Friday evening, or Saturday Evening. 

At Home

Now, quickly let me make an update on what I have experienced within the last week. While at home, I face no problem at all, even if my family member is standing right next to or behind me. So I am almost totally free from the Shy Bladder in my home environment.

At Outside

I think the scenario is pretty much the same, as it has been in the last few months. I remember the two instances when I was successful this week. 

The scenario in the one instance was that I had already started, and another person walked in, and I kept going. This happens almost every time, once I start it would keep coming. However, there still would be anxiety, but somehow it keeps going. Rarely it stops.

In the 2nd instance, I took my place at the urinal and almost at the same time another person took my place at the urinal and there was an empty place in the middle. There are partition walls but not up to the height of the head. I was able to urinate with no issue at all. In fact, I made a large sound with the urine, by forcing it out at a larger speed and volume. So when it touches the bowl, it made a splashing sound that everybody could hear in the bathroom. 

Yes, there were failures as well, and I had to step into the closed-door urinals, where I am 100 % successful, always. 

See you in the next week's post where in I will share my Shy Bladder success stories from the current upcoming week. Please leave a comment, if you have anything to say. 

Thank you! 

My Daily Shy Bladder Journal - # 01

Hi there,

If you're reading this, I'm assuming that either you or someone you know is also struggling with Shy Bladder. Alternatively, you might be in the field of mental health and are looking to understand the experiences of someone who has been dealing with Shy Bladder since the age of 10. I'm now 35, so you can see how long this condition has been affecting me.

Navigating my New Office and My Strategy for Coping with Shy Bladder

I've only written about Shy Bladder a handful of times on this website over the last decade. I'm not entirely sure if it's helped alleviate my anxiety, but it certainly has allowed me to be more open about this condition. Whenever I get to know someone who happens to accompany me to the restroom, I take the opportunity to share my experience with them. I did this on my first day at my new job. I spoke about my condition not only with my manager, who was an acquaintance from the past but also with my fellow alumni who are working in the same office.

Did any of them judge me for it? I don't know, and I haven't noticed any significant change in their behavior toward me. However, I don't go around sharing my condition with every person I encounter. There needs to be a certain level of rapport, of course.

So, Does Talking About Shy Bladder Make a Difference?

In my experience, at least in the presence of those with whom I've shared my condition and whom I believe to be understanding, I can now urinate while standing next to them. Sometimes it takes a few moments, but when I feel my anxiety creeping in, I steer the conversation elsewhere to distract my mind. And then, it happens effortlessly. I feel a sense of relief and confidence after each instance.

My Success Rate Dealing with Paruresis in the Office Restrooms

However, not everyone in the office is someone I'm comfortable discussing shy bladder with. Hence, there are instances every day where I wait for others to leave the restroom before I can use it. Sure, there are also private stalls, but I like to challenge myself daily.

 Throughout the workday, I find myself visiting the urinals around 4-5 times. During this, I do experience occasional failures in attempting to urinate in the presence of others, but there are also instances of success, at least once or twice daily. So, as you can see, my success rate is around 60%, which is quite motivating.

The Purpose of This Blog Post

The main aim of this post is to make myself more comfortable discussing Paruresis. If you'd like to chat with me about it, feel free to leave a comment or reach out via WhatsApp at - sanjay91422@gmail.com, 8580758440. Don't worry, I'm not charging anything for a conversation, but please opt for messaging over direct calls.

I plan to keep this journal active by documenting my daily successes and setbacks. I aspire to overcome this mental struggle within a month. I acknowledge that this goal is ambitious, given my 25-year-long battle, but I believe it's time to genuinely give it a shot.

My One-Month Recovery Plan

Starting today, August 15, 2023, I commit to recording this journey daily until September 15, 2023. These 30 days of transformation will be like walking through a dark tunnel, leading to the opening of a bright, green, and joyous world on the other side. If you're reading this article at a later date and are curious about my progress—whether I reached that bright end of the tunnel or not—please explore the latest posts on this blog.

Thank you for stopping by!

Warm regards, Sanjay

Hair Fall and its Remedies

Hi,
How you doing? Its been a long time, about 3 months, and now I am here to post another article into this blog dedicated to spiritual and health issues. In the recent months, I noticed that my hairs had been getting thinner and also my hairline was receding backwards from the two top corners of my forehead.

It was irritating to imagine myself as a bald man. I am only 27 years old, and it would be a shame if I become bald, oh my God!!, I thought!. What did I do? Well, I searched the internet to enlighten myself about the problem and find the remedies.

First I tried to understand the hairs. As they say, hairs need protein to grow, and along with that they need other vitamins and minerals. These minerals reached the scalp of our head, with the help of blood. If blood circulation is not good, your hairs may become thin and weak due to the insufficient nutrients.

So we need two things for having thick and shinier hairs:

1. Right amount of diet, containing the right nutrients required for hair growth, 
2. A good blood circulation to our head, to carry them.

I wished that I could have collected the links of all the articles that I read, so as to give you the reference, but somehow, it didn't occur. Anyway, so what are the nutrients and foods that are required to get the nutrients into your body? Let's talk about protein, protein is found in nuts and beans, in eggs and meat. 

If you don't eat meat and eggs, then you have to rely on the beans, Soyabean is known to have the maximum protein, though it is not as pure as found in the eggs. Other than protein, for other nutrients, we advised to eat fruits such as Indian Gooseberry and olive, which are widely used to make the hair oils.

For a better blood flow, we should eat iron rich diets and exercise daily. If exercising is not possible then, yoga might help, such as Sirsha-asana. Then I heard about Baba Ramdev's nail rubbing yoga. The four finger nails of the two hands are rubbed against each other in a brisk manner. People claim the hair fall stops, and new hairs are grown at the bald patches.

Some articles suggest the use of the onion juice, mixed with curd etc.
Some people ask you to apply the different products and lotions, but care should be taken, and no new article should be applied with the consent of a physician if possible.

Although my hairs are thin since my childhood, but still I am relying on the Yoga, and eggs for a while, I will keep you updated, when I see the results. Please subscribe yourself to my blog, to get the updates.

Thank you!

How to deal with the craving for Smoking.

Greetings!

I hope you are doing great! Well, everyone knows that smoking kills, smoking is injurious to health, and it causes cancer and blah blah! who cares!!! Right?
Today the situation is that many children from the 6th standards, when they don't know how to properly hold the pen, start holding those crutches. I don't know whom to blame! Should I blame the tobacco industry or the parents who are not able to give them the right direction or should I blame myself for not sharing my own story yet.

I was only around 9 years old age, when I tried to smoke a Beedie. I and Sonu were classmates and neighbors, so we were together for almost whole of the day. I don't remember exactly whose idea was this, but we tried one beedie each, which we stole from a bundle kept by his grandfather in his sleeping room.

That was the first real encounter that I ever have had at that age, but it was not the real smoking, because I never inhaled the smoke beyond the throat. It would have made me cough to death, if I had been doing so. This is a very long untold story, which I can not complete here, so I am writing it into a complete book, where I will share with the you the complete story.
I will share with you the process of thoughts that made me leave this all behind and becoming a real happy person. I will try to make it an inspiration for those who need help with it;I will give you an in depth understanding of the shift in the thinking which took in my mind and changed me.

Story goes till the age of 27 years, that is when I write this book after almost one and a half year of the freedom from this trap of smoking.  Yes! I was genuinely able to say this to myself that this was my last cigarette. Many people say that line, but generally that's not sincere, and therefore they fail themselves. It is not that they really failed, all they need is a deep understanding of the steps to get the real desire to face the freedom and happiness, which I suppose they are afraid of.

Thats all for now, I shall share the dates of the release and the link of the eBook once I finish it, till then please have patience. If you have anything useful, and worth sharing, please write in to me. I will really appreciate it.

Thank you :)

An introduction with "Akhil Bharatiya Santmat Satsang"

Hi, Life is busy, very busy, nobody want to waste a single minute, because its precious. It is hard to find the time for doing the things which are out of our routines, but there are people, who go to Satsangs, and meditate everyday. These people are the most happiest people, and they will not complain about time either.

"Meditation can not be done, it happens, because meditation for me is to become thoughtless", I replied to Mr. Krishan Verma. We both were on the paper checking duty at JNGEC Sunder Nagar, and had a short introduction of each other. He told me that he have been connected with Akhil Bharatiya Santmat Satsang" since early ages of his teen period, because his father was linked with the organization.

Teaching is a line where one can find the time to do some other things, such as I do the blogging. He told me that he had the plans to visit a Satsang organized in Gujarat by the same organization. Then he offered me a cup of tea along with a talk with his uncle, who belong to Sunder Nagar itself. He told me that his uncle, who works as a Physics professor in MLSM College, Sunder Nagar, had been connected with the Satsang too.

He was sure that once I talk to his uncle, it would help me a lot to understand about meditation and this organization, which would benefit me in my spiritual journey. We were to get free from the checking duty at 4:30 PM, so we drove directly to uncle's home. This was a fruitful meeting with Mr. Vivek Vaidya, h had been working with MLSM college Sunder Nagar since last 25 years, and was connected with this organization since many years. 

He offered me the introduction to the organization and told many stories from his friend circle. Those stories hiked my faith in the spirituality study and meditation studies.

its I came to know about this biographical book titled "Shri Brijmohan Vachnamrit", written in Hindi in Hindi by Param Sant Mahatma Yashpal Ji Maharaj. 

Thank you for your kind visit!